Thursday, January 04, 2007
sigh.. i reali hope u'll let me go.. n tt u'll truely b free fr dis pain n hurt i've caused u.. 1 day u'll let me go de.. sometimes in life u need 2 noe when to let go.. den life wun seem so terrible 2 live...
sigh..suan le..i oso dun noe wat more 2 tell u le.. u noe i wun be tt hard hearted.. but 1 ting i wan 2 get dis clear.. i wun get soft hearted le.. dis time im sure of wat i want.. of my decisions.. so..... u reali have 2 let me go.. i dun wan 2 hurt u anymore... not worth it man..
haix..change topic ba.. 2day came sch veri veri early..cos mum need 2 reach work earlier..sian..den stand there make me wanna slp more..lol..end up givin up 2 wait for ht and e rest..lol..sorry wor.. yeap.. end up pei daphne go mac 2 buy her breakfast n i bought a hashbrown myself..lol..nicenice.. ^^
oh ya! ytd i went gymin session wif -poing.. *so cute tt name lol* i finally manage 2 jog 2.4km without stopping sia!! so happy!! haha..though veri slow la..but yeap..still happy! jogged 20mins non stop..but den i realise tt when i jog slowly my injured leg wun get pain tt fast..lol..so next gymin session muz jog slowly le!! den slowly increase speed..lol..yeap..so fun 2 go gym.. hehe..den chat a lot wif -poing.. yeap..thx girl 4 keepin me company ^^
to some1: thank you for being so understanding..!! yeap.. i'm reali very very touched.. by both ur action n words.. =)
ah yen: thx for keepin me company on new yr's eve..lol..found out so much tings both fr e past n present.. ^^ im glad we're startin 2 share again.. ^^ ur frdship means a lot 2 me!
hwee: hope u'll get well soon!! ^^ ytd lunch was great though didnt get 2 talk tt much.. muz drink more water hor!! yeapyeap =)
thinking of you @ 12:16 PM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
all i can say now is... I'm truely very sorry... i noe sayin sorry wun make ur pain go away.. mayb i was in the wrong not to tell u when my feelings started to fade.. i noe its not fair 2 juz end us like tt aft 3yrs 10mths of the rs.. but, if i dun end now, it'll b more unfair to you.. you'll onli hurt and fall harder.. so plz.. plz try 2 accept dis fact can? by accepting, the pain n wounds would slowly lessen.. i noe im e 2nd most dearest person u've lost.. you survived thru e 1st 1.. im veri sure u'll be able to survive thru this..
maybe i've prolonged the break too long le..tt's y now tings become like that.. but our fate ends here le.. i noe i told u that you got the right 2 woo me back... but i got the right to reject.. im sorry tt i've become so heartless..but tiredness made me become like this.. if u truely regret it now, den learnt fr it ba.. dun make e same mistakes.. n if u reali still love me.. den let me go ba.. let me lead e life i want.. tt way tings wun be that awkward btwn us.. truely loving me does not mean u need 2 have me.. it means to let me b happy.. i noe i sound veri evil... but ya...
ytd was e day we ended... im truely sorry... tt i've hurt you so deep.. i noe u so long i've nv seen u tt upset n hurt.. i feel guilty.. but if i dun do it..u'll onli hate me even more..... those feelings i feel now is not out of love.. its out of guilt ba.. so reali dis time... its time 2 let go n for u 2 move on wif ur life.. to find a beta some1.. whom will feel that u reali cherish her cos i believe u've reali learnt ur lesson le...
take lots of care...n i reali mean n pray tt u'll live well... for urself.. n ur fam cos i noe they reali reali care a lot for u...
thinking of you @ 5:27 PM
Friday, December 29, 2006
been a long time since i updated.. many tings happened in juz a few days.. aiyo.. weird feelings sia.. a mixture of feelings.. both good and bad ba i muz say..
kind of in a wrong mood rite now so cant reali tink of wat to say.. so shall juz end here ba..takecare all.. ^^
thinking of you @ 4:58 PM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
im so bored~!! 2day is another boring day at ops rm..lol..but ok la..did managed 2 crap ard wif si yan, beng guan, hui yi n daphne.. ^^ ooh a bit wif mr chong oso.. but as usual happy moments are short-lived.. so now im bored again~! lol..
ytd was christmas..surprisingly a lot of ppl wished me dis yr.. ^^ thx to all!! ^^ miss every1 to bits man.. christmas was spent mostly at hm..lol..cant blame ba..dad's tired can tell. den let him slp lo..den he wanted 2 bring us out in e evening but by den i didnt feel like gg out sia.. but den since he wanna bring den go ba..went to orchard..lol..was crowded man!! cos there had a performance.. den as expected dad was a bit frustrated ytd cos he hates crowds! lol.. for me dun noe y ytd dun feel e frustration..lol..
recently im veri weird lo..like everyting oso numbed le..wat happen to my feelings sia..!! oh man..ok but its gd tt ytd i was not frustrated la..lol..^^
sat went out wif my dear cousin..lol..was laughin my head off at the theater la.. "night at the museum" is sooooo funny!! nv regret changing my mind..lol..cos at 1st suppose to watch "charlottes web" de.. sorry vinc.. make u cannot watch tt show.. hope u can watch it 2nite.. ^^
anyway e outin was fun n enjoyable *as usual =) went to lunch at the hong kong resturant at cine..e food is good..yeap..muz go there wif frdx n baby 1day.. hmm.. aft movie went to chill at ps..lol..while he waitin for his frd 2 arrive..crapped ard..den when his frd, sharon, came..den chatted a lil..den listen 2 them crap..lol.. quite funny listening to them la..though half e time im tryin 2 figure out wat they talkin.. lol.. brain 2 slow tt nite ba.. LOL.. den walked wif them back 2 orchard..but i went off at somerset le..yeap..
1st time went hm all by myself..since dad was oversea..dun noe y i felt a sense of independence.. but aiyo..dad's back in sg le..they sure muz wait for me 2 reach hm den will slp..sian..oh well dad's willingly fetch me hm..shld not complain oso.. ^^
tml meetin baby..thx poh eng for understanding..!! love you to bits..!! muacks!
anyway tml suppose 2 pei baby shopping for his clothes for sat..yeap..1st time gonna help him choose clothes sia..haha..den if got time shld be gg watch movie..hope can watch sia.. feel like watching "charlotte's web" too! haha.. of "curse of e golden flower" oso can..LOL..yeap.. lookin forward to outin tml.. ^^
thinking of you @ 5:15 PM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
ytd nearly got scoldin fr ms chia again~ lol. lucky wif mr chong help we escaped! lol.. heng heng~ ^^ ytd was a borin day as well lo..but went to gym aft sch ytd!! lol. actually not to e gym. poh eng changed her mind n we went 2 run at e track instead..lol..she pro sia..ran non stop for 12 rounds!!! omg! i run non stop 2rounds wanna die le lo..nvm!! next wk again!! muz start 2 exercise le..lol..mayb sun go downstair joggin oso!! ^^
been slpin early dis few days..mostly cos nth 2 do..so slp lo..but den still tired sia..dun noe y oso..haha..mayb cos always nth 2 do..den bored..ytd was readin "the boy called it" wah..i read le was quite gross out by e boy's mother..haix..dun noe how he survived man..told cousin abt it..n he say i shld feel happy im not in e boys' shoes..lol..i noe! of cos la! but its my nature to still complain ma..dun wanna get moody so shan't cont abt my stupid complains...
hmm..finally read fin e book..hui wen say she'll lend me e 2nd book tml ^^ she got all e 3 books! omg lo..haha..didnt noe she will read oso..haha..but its good..books she buy seem nice.. hehe..shall go borrow!! lol..yeap..mayb i shall start my collection of books oso!! hehe..readin makes my sadness go away sometimes..
thinking of you @ 12:48 PM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
was a boring day sia..but bad ting is got scolding again..as usual..seems like almost everyday kana scoldin from Ms Chia sia.. sigh.. y we always do wrong?! always forget tings?! lol. hmm.. hopefully we'll be more alert soon!! if not will die of heart attack soon sia..lol..she so fierce we oso dun dare 2 approach her sometimes..aiyo...
but work is gettin veri routine nowadays..lol..den a bit sian..cos aft we've done our work nth 2 do le..sigh..dis is bad man..lol..rite now left 8 more wks till end of 2nd stopover! cant wait sia..
im seriously in need of outin session! go where oso fine..lol..speakin of which..i've yet 2 get baby his bday present!! die le..no time left to go buy sia..sigh..dun noe how oso..dun noe wat 2 get oso!! wallet i got him b4 le..shirt..dun find anyting tt suit him..shoe..dun wanna get tt..left wat sia?! sianzzz.. y guys so hard 2 find pressie de? lol..been tinkin abt it for months still cannot get a result..LOL..
thinking of you @ 5:00 PM
